house-keeping

I arrived home at 7 p.m.
dog waiting outside

I had work to do, so
I took off my clothes, and put
on a white t-shirt, yoga pants
and a french linen apron

I turned on the tap at the kitchen sink,
luke warm to hot, first a red bowl
then a glass, and another, three forks
a spoon and a knife later, i turned
off the tap and took my sponge and wiped
the sink, the counters, light fixtures
and appliances, fridge , stove and so on

I lifted all the chairs off the floor
swept the kitchen, bathroom, dining and living
room and the vestibule

I turned the tap on again and filled the sink with geranium scented
soap, i took a mop out and started, living, dining, kitchen,and bathroom
and yes the vestibule...

then it hit me suddenly,

I stood still, l tried not to move blink or breathe,
as if somehow I could take it all back.......

would Jacob notice that I had just wiped the last traces of porter..

I tried not breathe, but I did
and it hurt....