everything I know is no longer than a grain of rice

I think I have options, choices but tonight they seems to hide, disappear from my hearts vision. The brain part of my head has decided to take control or at least make an attempt too. I know what it is telling me to do, how I wish I could fight it. I suddenly have an understanding; there is walls you can break thru and some you just can't. we just can't . all i seem able to do right now is stare at the little red lights that illuminate my existence.

I wonder will the only warmth I feel this fall come from that very light.