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i moved where my heart had drifted off to long before. i live on a hill of hundred acres, where my dreams have merged with the view. it is quiet from machine noises yet loud with sounds of horses, dogs, cats chickens and ducks. nature is the true artist in resident and i am just her apprentice who often gets lost in her gaze. once and a while i travel back to cities and foreign places to put into photographs what i have learned, yet always, part of my heart is left on the hill..

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

you are not him


i saw you there, dressed like him in your long black coat and hat, i tried not to look and for a moment or two it worked. but when i turned again i saw, it was you. i wanted to cross the street, i wanted to disappear so i started walking fast thinking how can this be. when i said goodbye i thought it meant you would seize to exist i believed it, naive of me i know, but wasn't i all along. all i could think about as i rushed through the darkened city streets, please, please, i don't want to hear your voice i don't want you to look at me and i at you ..now i realized i was running and all the night lights where playing with me. then i heard it, my name my heart ached instantly as feet stopped, my body begged for mercy. i knew you were right there behind me and tears began to fall, then your hand touched my back as i turned around- it wasn't you, him was not you i stood there with tears among the traffic lights, cars and watched my heart fall to the sidewalk floor..all of it, to much...

8 comments:

Char said...

wow...very powerful

Irene said...

that is beautiful

shilvia said...

my gosh...my heart races as i read these!!!painfully beautiful :D

shilvia said...

whoopsies...love the image!!!fairy lights are magical!!! i mentioned this blog on my post...hope its alright dear :)

flyinamber said...

just come here for the first time..like your blogs..
greetings from flyinamber

Aran said...

i read your words and it's like i feel what you were feeling in my skin. powerful.

virginia said...

lights, beautiful lights...kilowatts by the yard.

spread your wings said...

just seeing this post. it is so powerful.