the train took her

i wonder sometimes when i lost her? as if that day my eyes were filled with tears that i became blind to what direction the train took her. I hardly remember anything about her. the clothes that hang all over the house don't even trigger the faintest of memories . she is gone. in my attempt to make her stronger i scared away. sometimes i think i hear her, in a passing giggle or a sigh but no nothing, for she was silenced by my naive ways.

Sometimes it feels like i am following her but how could that be i left her behind, kicked up dirt in her face. confused she sat on that train and now the train is gone and no one is looking for her, not even me.

the lights went on

early this morning around five am i was driving home when i approached a small over pass to
my exit. as i looked to my right i could see a sea of school buses(hundreds) , i had noticed them before. as i prepared to take a second look all the lights on the buses turned on..it was surreal and beautiful truth be told it was magical...like a little gift to my eyes. nothing beautiful about big orange buses( never cared for the school bus i had a weak stomach).. i love when hard edges, industrial environments become beautifully soft.

the month i love

it is finally here a new beginning, or a new chapter, perhaps a new book. January is my favorite month, last year i wish january never came for i lost jacob january first. This is a new year, a new january and it has been wonderful so far.