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i moved where my heart had drifted off to long before. i live on a hill of hundred acres, where my dreams have merged with the view. it is quiet from machine noises yet loud with sounds of horses, dogs, cats chickens and ducks. nature is the true artist in resident and i am just her apprentice who often gets lost in her gaze. once and a while i travel back to cities and foreign places to put into photographs what i have learned, yet always, part of my heart is left on the hill..

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

I have safely fallen to the ground


Dear Monsieur I have wanted to tell you
something for a few months now about
one of your post " into the wild" I wanted to
let you know I understood your last line
perfectly so much that until now I was
unable to share my personal
views with you....

You see I have always been silenced with pain
when viewing or witnessing people who have in every morsel
of their being lived their lives fully only for it to
be taken quickly- why is it that the ones who
live life with a wholeness and pure understanding of what living
is- have it taken away........( i think I might still have some difficulty
in expressing myself)

At a very young age my mother taught me
to see beauty in everything and along with others
she showed that messages might come quickly, but
can not fully be understood without time....

I have recently found that you might view
me as being one who swims in sadness-I
would like to tell you- never in my life has one
minute of sadness been without the company
of a moment of clarity or even happiness...

I have always believed that life was much better
bittersweet.............but I must confess that
there has been many times of pure sweetness
in my life.

1 comment:

corine @ hidden in france said...

Sorry Nadia, for peeking into your life as t was then. i wanted to understand more of your past Christmases. I think I understand better now.
You write: " never in my life has one
minute of sadness been without the company
of a moment of clarity or even happiness..." I adore this. I helps me understand myself more