i am having a meltdown. a mixture of anxiety and fear. i am trying to be myself through this holiday season.
see we do not spend hours in line at the mall anymore but understand the ones that do. we gather things from the forest to decorate our home with. we bookmark recipes that we must try and have chats by the fire about what we hope christmas would be. we dream of both sides of the family joining us here for a day at the farm with sleigh rides, good food, warm fire and maybe if weather allows it snow angels and men. not everyone feels that such things are enough- but why i wonder, why can't we just have moments uncluttered by things, ones that may just out live the things, why can't we just give the gift that can not be bought!(cliche maybe)
oh maybe i melting down because i have not been outside in three hours( to long for me) i should go now clear my head.
* update, the walk did the world of good, nature is magical she reminds of how lucky i am everyday.
2 comments:
That will be such a nice thing to do, going back to basics, real merry Christmas times, bringing the real meanings back to it. something the kids will benifit to learn.
keeping you in my thoughts, dear nadia :)
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