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Tomorrow I will share with you a tale
of two city's the one i am from and the
one i Iive in

where I live

happy accidents

the courtyard, the girl and the tree

the moon sat at the table

Earth and how we see it.

I would like to talk about the photograph right below

I was in old montreal as you know; cobblestone streets, historical buildings charm at every step, I have always been fascinated with alleyways- specially the ones where at either end you can see another building a piece of architecture, a lamppost.

I was taking this photograph because the alley way was very long and at the end of it stood a historical home with a tin green roof and behind it a church. I stood there for a very long time, it is only when viewing the photograph on my computer did I notice the trash (garbage). The reason I am
bringing it up is that yesterday was Earth Day and as you know the earth is not well and show’s no sign of getting better......so I started thinking why? this brings me back to the photograph.........we don't see it, we can't see passed the sunshine, blooming trees, flowers, oceans birds, we smell flowers and enjoy cool breezes. It is only those who
are close to it researching what is happening to this great planet, they are the ones visually on a daily basis seeing the destruction
of earth.

We just don't see passed the flowers, we say things like " must see the glaciers before they are gone" I know this because i have said it and done it but should we not being saying " lets find away to stop it from leaving"?

Happy Birthday Jacob.
I miss you and I am not
sure about doing this without you. I am changing
You would always let me know when I was going in the
wrong direction.
I thank you for sending Sophie, she makes
me smile, she has your face and your brothers too, she knows
the right time to put her paw on mine you taught her that i know...
but jacob she is not you...............and these days I would not mind sitting
quietly with you my dear companion......oh dear jacob how i wish....

the hammock part three

Today is the day you know what one,
the day you say to yourself "this is the first day of
the rest of my life" The hammock now sits higher
off the ground for the fullest affect of
floating. I wear a sun hat-the most beautiful of suns
is shinning and the leaves of the apple tree can not shade
me yet. I will read a book- that a new but good friend
had surprised me with" I bought you a book because
I know you will love it, but I am scared to give it to you
because the story is about you and you might take off
for a year just like in the book and I am selfish and want you
to stay here and be my friend" the nicest thing ever-thank you.

so I will rock or is it sway in the hammock reading this book
I am happy to have given up all the things and people who
take without giving......because the overflowing moments of joyous
and exciting new things that have happen of late have now taken every inch
of space....and I am happy to make room.

Going home

After a while you learn the subtle differences between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn’t mean security and you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises. You begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open with the grace of a woman not the grief of a child and your learn to build your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain and the futures have a way of falling down in mid flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so, you plant your own garden and decorate your own instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers and you will learn you can really endure that you are really strong and you have worth and you learn and learn and you learn.

--Unknown






i don't remember a more beautiful weekend.

The hammock part deux

today it was not enough to just
stare at it. I laid under the apple tree
while actually eating an apple resting on
the chest of a friend, the beauty of the moment
came when I realized I had fallen asleep. this is big for me
I will call it growing pains and peace.

the hammock

sometimes just staring at it relaxes me.

walking across time

Today I walked across the city
my pace-fast. I was trying to get to where
I was going as fast as I could. It was
the prettiest of days as I rushed I could not believe
how much I was taking in, a street I had never been on
how was that possible? The sweet smell of blossoming
trees and hyacinths. I was overwhelmed with appreciations for
every little thing that I walked passed...well maybe not the SUV's
and the half empty recycle bins but the flowers, the architectures and
sound of a piano being played. I was dissapointed I did not have my camera,
but I also knew if I did, I would have never gotten to where I was going.
I realized how happy I was and how happy these last few days had been, and
how I knew for sure now that I had entered a new chapter, the kind that I could
twirl in, walk barefooted, laugh, dance, the one that I would grow,discover
and be grateful for.

Study Of light Midnight

sophie and the apple blossom branch

a morning drive

This morning after a bad dream I found myself awake at five am,
I looked outside my window and saw thick fog in my garden. I
knew I wanted to hop into my car and take photographs so I did
by the time I reached the area I wanted the fog had disappeared,
but I was able to capture these two shots.

I am learning things

about myself more and more each day
i also know how lucky i am to have a list of happy things
like these;

I am happy because

I have the loveliest mother who I have so
much in common with, who understands me, encourages
me and gets easily excited by beautiful things and magical
words just like me.

I am happy because

I am learning how to be friends with women or maybe because
i have found women i want to be friends with.

I am happy because

I have learned to use my camera in a simpler
way- the way I truly see things.

I am happy because

Blogging allows you to capture, recorded and share things the moment after you
felt and seen them.

I am happy because

even though I have gained beaucoup de pounds
I have learned to see myself differently, and for a reason I can not
explain I feel more feminin then I have ever before.

I am happy because

I have sophie to love

I am happy because

I live in the city and only ten minutes away
I can walk on a farm or deep into the forest

I am happy because...I am lucky to have all this.

but I must confess that in me i find sadness because

today some people will not have a chance for any happiness

because

war, hunger, disease, fear,hate, depression, anxiety, death.

words turn into feelings

a dear person sent me these words today. Thank you...

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word,
a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring,
all of which have the potential to turn a life around."

- Leo Buscaglia

Lets take a walk in the woods

" I am going to take you somewhere you have not been before" I love hearing those words ...I had a very nice time
exploring this new found place, marble, moss, new life everywhere....the temperature could not have been more perfect, trees so high you could easily trip from looking up......tiny rivers and stone walls....it was really great to be out there or is it in there (forest) the best part of it was no one else was there.



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her things

this photographs was me looking into my bedroom from the porch
it is funny even when trying to look in, all I could see is out.

morning

Sometimes you promise yourself that you will
sleep in..but you get up when you hear the dog begin to wake.
you make your bed and sware that your going back to it...you turn
your expresso machine on and say to yourself it's for later. You start tidying up
you walk to the window that overlooks the yard and stare into it.....you smile
because you know your up for good.

happiness is when things begin to bloom

i see many changes... my exterior is very different than it was......and what lives in
me, in my heart and my thoughts they are different too...but somehow I believe
that something new, something inside me is beginning to grow(no) and the exterior
shell that has changed it too just might begin to bloom

a moment away from taxes

sometimes one moment turns into a complete lack of discipline.

a moment of kindness a lifetime of peace

I woke up and found these words waiting for me, but i think i was waiting for them...
Success is never final and failure never fatal. It's courage that counts