you can not

you tried to put your arms around my neck
then you opened me up and took my heart out with your bare hands
then you started building a cage of metal and high tensile wire
you were trying to do  it again, have my soul locked up.

well you can't take her from me, or anyone or anything
so what, i went away, i smiled and laughed, dreamt and lived out loud.

but she is here and your hands are nowhere near me
and i will not imprison myself again.

family

my family. ours. this is a happy sight.
this is okay by me. this is who i live for.
and that is where my bliss comes from.

sophie and the chaise

a dogs life

sleep, sleep, sleep she does it perfectly
perhaps i can learn form her.

no water after midnight

there is so much i want to write about
like my weekend on the lake, my new house......

but all i can think about is sophie and how i want her to be
alright today, how i want her surgery to be over and how
i want her to to be healthy.

i am also thinking of the surgery itself and how did we come about
decided that dogs shouldn't mate. How come of all animals(exception i guess would be cats)
have that choice. aren't dogs from a pack and don't pack animals mate for life.
I have so many questions rolling about in my head and it makes my heart hurt.

Sophie I deeply sorry, for choosing this for you without asking.....

sophie and the apple blossom branch

The big little girl

Sophie is my little baby girl she is only
15 weeks. sophie does not know her size
and sleeps in the most delicate of places.
today she has chosen my bench..with custom hand made vintage linen
crewel ten feet long pillow from the transalvanian women's co-op and
antique french silk toile cushion, yet I do not have the heart to tell
her to move........... she
takes my breath away..and as you know she
has already stolen my heart.

rain & love

I am lucky to have all the windows over look
the garden..when rain falls things seem extra
special to me. I played with sophie all morning
she is beautiful and ever so loving. It is amazing
how perfectt she is, she is truly the combination of Jacob
and Porter...when I am with her it is like they are still here
with me..........I am lucky to be staying in on
this rainy day with sophie

morning light

who I am

today i am not well, my bones ache
walking, typing is hard...i think it is the flu
I sit wrapped in a pretty white and red quilt
on a white chaise lounge, the house is full
of flowers from the flower show everything looks so
pretty. My furniture white, a bouquet of white roses
sit a top of a glass table. The sundance channel plays movies
I have not seen before, they are good.

but i have the biggest smile both on my face and in my heart
i am lucky..........I am happy and my life has been full of incredible
moments, I have felt all the emotions I have dreamt about........


simply i write this to say I have been living life and I have waltzed both to sad songs
and happy ones and I am grateful for all of it

Sophie

brings me joy